As going home. I'm being discharged from the hospital today which is a good thing, but Leni is going to remain in the NICU which is a really really crappy thing. I know she's being extraordinarily well taken care of. I know that the stronger she is when she comes home the better everything else will be. I know this is what she needs, and I want it for her and am so grateful that we have access to such amazing care. But it doesn't make walking out of the hospital without your baby any less crappy. I may be heading to my own bed for the first time in a week, but it most certainly does not count as going home until she's there too.
Some really good things:
She exceeded all of her feedings between last night and this morning.
Her bilirubin levels are going in the right direction, and last night they took out out from under the photo therapy lights and put her back into a regular crib.
She's opening her eyes much more frequently, and overall seems to be much more aware.
The doctors are playing it day-by-day, so each new day brings another chance that she'll be ready to come home.
MY MOM IS HERE.
Wait, did you hear that one? Just in case...
MY MOM IS HERE. A really, really really really good thing.