May 14, 2008

Tomorrow Morning

Is potentially the last morning I will wake up, ever, forever, without legally being recognized as a mother to a child. Our child has been growing in our hearts for a long while, however tomorrow morning could be the last morning when I wake up wondering if it will ever be "official". Addis Ababa is 7 hours ahead of us here in NY, so there is a real possibility that I will wake up on Friday morning to the phone call informing us that we are now, officially, his parents. Which brings me back to the possibility that tomorrow morning could be the last morning before everything changes. Friday morning everything could change.

I don't know all of the ins and outs of the regulations, but I'm pretty sure our boy's birth mother will need to be present at the court appointment on Friday in order for us to be officially identified as his parents from that point forward. The very word "official" in this case means two completely different things. For me, "official" is a gargantuan sigh of relief and a beginning of the life of a forever family. For her, thousands of miles away, the word "official" is causing her to dread Friday morning. Tomorrow could be a last for me, but would then also be a last for her. She will always be his first mother and we will make certain that our son knows and understands and is proud of his beginnings. Nonetheless, I'm feeling a bit bittersweet about the next 36 hours.

11 comments:

Amanda & Andrew said...

:)

Sandi said...

Wonderful post and I am praying for you and your son's birth mother.

Brad and Fran Hoagland said...

Well said. Mixed emotions are very strange especially when they are so strong. We will be thinking of you

Gamma! said...

"Tomorrow, tomorrow, I love you, tomorrow, you're only a day away!" Remember singing this all the time as a child? Well, I think it will take on a whole new meaning today and I can just see you skipping down your streets singing at the top of your lungs! Love you guys - mom

Gamma! said...

And I just reread your thoughts and realize how yes, there is the birth mother (and birth grandmother) who are not celebrating over what she has had to do because of the realities of her situation. But she will know when she meets you what a wonderful choice she has made for her son - the gift of life and a future filled with hope because she loves him so much. I can't help but believe God has chosen you to be together and that His plan and purpose will be revealed (Jeremiah 29:11-13). Our prayer is and always has been for this dear birth mother that she will have a special peace in knowing her son will be placed in no better arms of love and hope than yours. Last Saturday was Birth Mothers Day, and we did celebrate them - because they love so much they give. What a gift for the many adoptive families waiting with arms open wide to share that love and hope. God bless you all!

Misty said...

That makes me weepy. My prayers are with you, as well as her, and your little one. Adoption is so very bittersweet. But there is a joy set before you!

Anonymous said...

It took me a very long time to learn that there is always two sides to every story and yo expressed both sides so well in thei blog entry. Hats off to you and Mike for seeking this opportunity. Ashton's mom will rest easier knowing that he is in your looving arms and a member of our great extended family.

Counting the hours...Mom C

Jodi said...

I hope it all goes smoothly for you. We are about one month behind you, so I keep reading your blog to let me know your timelines. I hope our court date goes well, too!

Annie said...

Yes, it is very bittersweet. It's hard to take it all in, isn't it?

Praying for you for tomorrow. Hope today is the last day you will spend that you have YET to be a mom!!

courtney rose said...

Jo- I can't wait to check your blog tomorrow morning to hear how it went. So much to think about, so much to plan, so much joy.
Good luck!
Courtney

Renee said...

i hope your court date goes well!!